which i will never hear

                                          

I heard many time that , we should stop forcing things which are beyond our control. But even though i write this line over and over in my head , and finally i always end up in same situation. Today while sitting alone in room i feel like i should scream  loudly , so at least the one whom i am expecting to act over it, hopefully finally can hear it. 

But sadly i am not in any situation where i can do this and just like this i left all hope that one day everything can be okay. 

 Though i plan every time that from now on i will think positive and with this try to implement every act in possible optimistic pattern, things tuned out to be beyond my control. Some time this heart is full of ocean of hopes and multiple options to solve all problems but sometime it turn out to be close pack of box with full of emptiness. 

Behalf of binge watcher from last a month , every time i get so many positive lessons from all those series. some day it make me a dull person who is loosing everything in life or someday bring new hope by adding a new path in life journey.

    But when you have to walk alone , and situation result into kind of mess every time. Than its become difficult to follow those good lines. But i dont know may be someone there at up in sky is able to make you fill with new hopes everyday. so i never forgot to thank him after every new task, but some time i become so helpless that i get thoughts that i should run away from here. 

I feel like i should stop using this social platform and so that i can stop watching new series . Because every time it put me in situation, where i start expecting that some day i will to get a person like "Kim shin " from series The Lonely and Great God - Goblin.

    Every time it  more painful that i am no longer a same person who was love to dance in rain, but i became more like a person who will get ill form draining . And finally end up of making mess and more pain that no one would be there to say me dont worry i will be always there with umbrella to protect you from rain. 

   "I will be with you till the last breath." this is line which i will never hear.

what i can here is pending duties , unfulfilled jobs and after all that you will never ever here any pacifying and calming support from near and dear one. what you can here is " be mature" expectation. 

You will never get a tight hug from your loved one just like Park Joon Young as in series Do you like Brahms? He mentioned that i want to become your friend , so that every time when you feel depressed and stressed i would be there to give you a tight hug. so you will no longer feel alone .