Unpredictable Life

 Life is so unpredictable sometime. Like being a adult and mature person you decide to do certain task in life by which you try to make everything picture perfect. But no matter how much you try , its always end up something different than what you dreamt of . And at last every single time when you end something which you never expect you try to console yourself with statement that, " at least you learn something new" or most give statement is " this is life so accept it and move on ".

                                                      

   Why we human are like this, to the something which we give our all best effort and precious time, but at last we settle at less. Why we didn't judge ourselves with that same opinion as we did at the time when other come across this situation. 

This all "keep trying" strategy make me a person who forgot that why i was start it and specially with what goal in mind. When i see around me , the surrounding and close people give me vibes that what im upto. Its like when ever i join them it feel like that they are morning person and i am a evening person. Im the one who never fit in there criteria. 

Long condolence technique is  no longer is effective for me . No longer same excuses work for me in the way they did earlier to me. But the only thing i can use for myself is , " its the life that chooses you , so stop finding excuses to run away just keep on going."

May be some day a miracle will happened and finally i can get opportunity to thanks myself that now im getting paid for all these year efforts. May be some day i dont have to deal with my regrets list. May be some day everything would be in order that how i want it to be.

Truly, i dont even remember that what was my expectation earlier and now whatever comes to me is acceptable , because choices time is over . So my heart and mind both at the same time, no longer bother to anything a person or anything else.

And most special thing is  that , may be some day , i dont have to use "pacifying statement".