Missing Someone Thoughts

 From morning i feeling very low and depressed , and i feel like i cant even move a bit. I want a sleep which continue till all this not passed. Just like after heavy rain all get relaxed and beautiful , im deadly want this feeling to end permanently . Because im no loner able to continue with all this heavy burden . you cant call it morning weakness because its not only in morning but every evening when  every where is complete silence , specially when i can hear my own breath too .  And this all mess drag me to next day till i get busy in my day to day routine.

                                              

In every evening i sum up all my work max to max at nine in night. Than im completely free but no sleep in eye , specially when i never take a small nap in full day. I know that i dont follow any kind of heavy physical hardwork, which can help me to sleep early. 

   I only mentally tired at everyday, and i think its not sufficient enough to let you sleep easily.

While walking alone on my terrace , i can feel cool breeze  but its not that level of chilling environment as its generally in march month of year , heat  on peak level, as i can feel .

May be this is because , i don't have other things to feel other than  summer. I can feel it on high preference , due to home alone activity.

Though i have started new habit of watching channel like bbc earth, national geographic, wild and history channel. I think its good to watch this kind of channel , as finally something which kept you busy by developing as knowledgeable person. where you seek to watch more and more good interesting details.

So this new major distraction technique of having eye on animals activity keep me indulge in things but ultimately its just a tv show . So you cant watch more than a limit on a day.  Just after its get dark outside , i feel like I'm suffocating inside house.

So as i get time, i just run to my roof garden where i can take walk of around one to two hours. 

But this "missing someone" thoughts , never left me alone any where. 

With every footstep im trying to remember good old memories, which can bring good sleep to my eyes. Which can relax my inner soul and calm down my head , who keeps on rolling bad and harsh scenes only.

Walking and walking its not enough , i need some kind of company for my feet's . So they can walk with some ease and answer is music.

So i just kept out phone from my pocket, and  with this i try to remember those lyrics which heard on one of friend Instagram feeds . 

Instagram features , old songs and with beautiful pictures.

ग नि ग, रे ग रे सा रे ग म ग म ग रे,

रे ग रे नि ध प म प रे ग ध प ग म ग रे, ध नि ग, रे ग, ग म…

क्यूँ हम बहारों से, खुशियाँ उधार लें

क्यूँ ना मिल के हम ही

खुद अपना जीवन सवार लें

तू जो मेरे पथ में, दीप उगा ले

हो उजाले, तो बंदगी हो जाए सफल…

तू जो मेरे सुर में…

म ध नि सा, म ग रे सा, नि ग ग, सा रे रे, नि सा सा

ग रे सा नि ध म, ग सा ग म ध नि सा…

तू जो मेरे सुर में, सुर मिला ले

संग गा ले, तो ज़िन्दगी हो जाए सफल

तू जो मेरे सुर में…

 

While humming with song, i realiaze that lyrics of song are so so beautiful. A song nicely written and beautifully sung. 

This song have simple lyrics but with very deep meaning . To which understand as, is we need our loved one to be with us. At every step of life weather its moment of sorrow or happiness, if we have someone with us, than every phase of life become easy.

And every person should understand this deep meaning that success is not in having big house or bank balance but to have family . Family with whom you can live each moment of life and those good moment will make your life successful. 

Those were days in my life where i too could walk with so ease by having hand in hand moment specially when we both sing this kind lovely songs together. 

But those days are no loner available in stock....