Happy Bird-4 ; Thoughts Ruins You

 Happy Bird-4 ; Thoughts Ruins You

      “Thought ruins you.

          Ruins the situation, twist things around, makes you worry and makes everything just worse than it actually is.”

Your thoughts can land you in your dream situation, in just a moment and its only thought which can bring you back at that place where you never ever imagine. So actual hero of your life is your thoughts and you would never ever realize it. I’m too even like this, I was thinking that nobody can restrict me now from doing anything but your thoughts make you victim that you itself start to refrain yourself.

  Somehow everything turned out in such way that my whole planning for future is now no longer same as I planned for two days earlier. The happy bird was on her way to meet its dream place but just a blink everything look clear like clouds were never there. Like the bird just wake up from her dream and whatever earlier seems her to be happiness could be actually a worst situation for life time.

  For me that evening was very blessed and my thoughts pass a judgment that nothing is better can this . Peaceful aura of combination of  evening , river bank , bird returning to home and   prayer from nearby temple . Everything is just like perfect and I decided that this is the only best thing for me. Friends, River , giggles and away from family responsibility , restriction but I was totally incorrect.

 One thing I always believe that you can learn from your every day and from each person . Yesterday I learn a big lesson for my lifetime and it mades me different person even add a new point to my characteristics and by this morning when im recalling it, I feel like I definitely need this lesson. Yesterday was special day as two of my friend were celebrating their birthday and just like other year we all gather at one place. We all get together and plan for outing, cut cakes and hang out basically main Moto is to spend time together and to create beautiful memories for lifetime. But with passing of time each individual is getting busy in their life mean their priority is changing and it happened.

    I even believe in same thing that priorities for people changes with time and so do i .But celebrating birthday is the only way is to spend time with friends especially in current pandemic. you can be child again for some time. by this way you can take break from your regular routine life . I went there at bday person's home, we cut the cake and then some short outing . I am not so much cheerful person but more introvert pattern person so I’m connected with only two to three person actually only two. Moreover this was the reason, my special friend, I bunked my work and decided to spend whole day with all.

  Yesterday was special because my thought always forced me to believe that with this special bestie I can break my silence and could even take risk of living alone for life time , because some friends are for lifetime. And one serious point I know about her is that she is best for me like care , protection, spending time , long conversation , roaming around city, at last you can feel light with her. but she too have some priority  and in friends group not even me but each individual comes after this bday person, who’s birthday we are celebrating today and This is actually damn true , which I even realize after this last day incident .   

   Because of this corona pandemic time we are running short at time and soon everything would be closed whether its cake shop or restaurant, so we are in hurry . My this bestie informed to other two of friends to bring cake, and that to of specific format, cake which is favorite of both this bday boy and my beastie because I don’t think that I have any kind of priority in cake . I am comfortable with anything which is made of chocolate flavor. But for her cake to be of specific flavor, some chocochips format, specific design , but because of time issues those person whom she instructed to bring cake , could not purchase it. 

     But bday person , whom for she is planning everything is also with us , and he was the one who suggest us to try for some other shop which are near by , luckily we find a place ,a bakery shop , which was just on 100m distance . Place was really good because we already find a bakery shop and that to near a small restaurant , but that we have not finalize for not even cake and restaurant. So we three to four girls went inside the bakery shop to look for cake. But she could not find her choice cake , so she just came out from there, but we rest 3 were inside and clicking selfie without even knowing that we are not buying anything from there.

  So as the time we get to know that we are sitting idol ,so we three even stand up to come out from there one by one and I am in the mid of three of girls to came out from shop . and  I already mention that this is  corona partial lockdown period , so shop owner turned down half shutter of shop . Because of that the one girl who’s walking before me lift shutter bit more with her hand and drop it down withouting paying attention that I am just behind her. As she droped it , the shutter brusted on my shoulder and im completely clueless that what just happened.

The situation was just like , I loss my control and girl after me help me to sit down. And rest everyone was surrounded me and asking me that did it hurt much or am I in normal condition or not. I was in terrible pain , my eyes were full of tears and cant decide that what should I say and how to react . But what I can see at that time , is that my besti is ruuning towards in opposite direction of me. To catch a friend who is just come there on his bike , and just went away with him on his bike to purchase that exact flavor cake for which she is struggling to brought for birthday person.

She even did’nt take a moment to ask me that am I ok or not , though I was surrounded by number of person and they all were papempring me and asking me that do I need something. One of my friend helping to moving my hand and shoulder just to check that may be it could medical emergency situation but what hurting me most is that whom im considering my best friend is just left me in pain for sake of cake. For that girl cake is only important thing at that time not  me. The girl whom with I spend whole day, and who is very well aware that im there at place because of her and she could not even take a moment to check my heath and condition.

   Even though situation was not that critical , but for me staying there is just like passing a year . We stayed there for one more hour we cut the cake and they played game too but I was not there because I was busy in collecting broken pieces , pieces of last some month planning and opinion. I want to run away from there , anywhere but that’s not my place.